Creative side of imagination

“Slow down and enjoy life. It's not only the scenery you miss by going to fast - you also miss the sense of where you are going and why.” ~ Eddie Cantor    This last few months I definitely should have slowed down but I didn't. So it was only a matter of time when something bad would happen to me. And it did. Now I have all the time on the world to reflect where it went wrong. I admit that I am sometimes or actually all the time a little stubborn. When I get something in my head that I want to do I need to do it and nothing can stop me. For certain things that is a great trait but it can also be the trait that gets you into trouble. I experienced that on my own skin.       As always I was planning a few projects that I wanted to do in next couple of weeks but I knew I had limited time. Therefore I had to stick to my schedule or it wouldn't work. I had an exam coming rapidly and some errands to carry out. With all this determination and enthusiasm I lost ...

         Lately I have noticed that there's a lot of negativity around me and it has taken its toll on me. Sure, in my life a lot of things that happened were somewhat negative, some positive but at the time I didn't realize it. I was just a little kid after all. But now, especially in my gap year, I started to see clearly how life can give you highs and lows. I guess it's a part of growing up. In order to be somebody better, to gain certain achievements you have to be able to face all the obstacles on the way. And I am completely OK with that. The only thing I can't wrap my head around is why do I need to feel miserable in the process. I used to be a lot happier, lively and sociable person than I am now just few years back. What changed?       I changed, society did, relationships did. It's just hard to grasp all that in, meanwhile figuring out what you are and what your life path should be. That's the sort of thing grown ups don't tell yo...

I deliberated for a while if I should post this but in the end I realized it'll be kind of liberating. For so much time I wanted to express this feelings in a song and somehow I couldn't do it, until a couple of days ago while listening to a power pop song sang by Ellie Goulding called Burn . It just opened out to me and even though for a lot of you this song / poetry (whatever you want to call it) probably won't make sense, it's very personal for me. With its flaws and topics it shows how I felt and probably still feel, my dark moments and thoughts. It's not intended for anyone neither is written to impose any negative feelings...it's merely my expression of long awaited emotions building inside me during the years. Some of you'll get it and some probably won't but all I want for you is to read song with its purpose in mind...thus being clearing myself of any negative emotions and thoughts and letting past behind. So without further ado here's the ...

First of all I have important notice that next part of online novel will come in first week of September (it could happen earlier) due to college work. Scripts and drafts are already in the making. So until then I will post work of others or some of my song and poems. This poem or you could actually take it also as a song is about too many young lives lost due to addiction. It hit hard for me when I found out one of my favorite actors (Cory Monteith) died because of an overdose. I was aware about his past but I never thought that his life would end so abruptly. His death and so many of other young actors and singers in last couple of years inspired me to write this poem. It's probably on the side of my rarest darkest songs and poems (they are hidden in my book :)) . At first I was hesitant but now I think that it deserves to be published and that this theme shouldn't be a taboo in our world. After all more we talk about it better chances we have to save another young life....