Slow down and enjoy life

“Slow down and enjoy life. It's not only the scenery you miss by going to fast - you also miss the sense of where you are going and why.” ~ Eddie Cantor

   This last few months I definitely should have slowed down but I didn't. So it was only a matter of time when something bad would happen to me. And it did. Now I have all the time on the world to reflect where it went wrong. I admit that I am sometimes or actually all the time a little stubborn. When I get something in my head that I want to do I need to do it and nothing can stop me. For certain things that is a great trait but it can also be the trait that gets you into trouble. I experienced that on my own skin.

      As always I was planning a few projects that I wanted to do in next couple of weeks but I knew I had limited time. Therefore I had to stick to my schedule or it wouldn't work. I had an exam coming rapidly and some errands to carry out. With all this determination and enthusiasm I lost sense of caution and importance of what I was doing. For me it was so important to finish this errands and projects in order to feel accomplished. Looking back at it I see now where I made my mistakes. I think I felt like I didn't achieved anything in the last year being out of the university. I missed being busy and doing projects, writing papers and such things so I occupied myself  as much as I could and however I knew. Now I see that it didn't help at all. In the end I just hurt myself badly (bad sprain with torn ligaments) which only brought new health complications along the way.

     I needed some time for myself to rethink about my wishes, goals and aspirations, to see what it is possible and what not and at the same time what I can do to act differently. Months of bed rest  helped with that. And there's plenty of months ahead until I completely rehabilitate my leg. It stopped me in a way. Everything I was doing, projects, writing came to a halt. As much as my body needed rest, my mind needed it too. Life showed me I have to slow down or something really bad could happen. Thankfully I didn't injure myself too seriously but I could have. Few centimeters left and I could hit my head or neck. I was really lucky. And Thank God for my good reflexes. But If I got something out of this is certainly that: 

  “It is important from time to time to slow down, to go away by yourself, and simply be.” ~Eileen Caddy

My unfortunate leg now already out of the cast and with crutches as its companions.